My Children

I love outdoor activities. Over the years here at poughkeepise area I have enjoyed apple picking, sledding on the hill behind our home, trip to Game Farm (which closed down this year 2006) and so on. so, here are some pictures.

I still find myself struggling in acceptance of His love. In fact, I preached about embracing God's grace a couple weeks ago. This morning I simply prayed that God would show and tell me that He loves me. I know full well in my knowledge that God is love and He loves me. I also know that I don't solely depend on my feeling. But I wasn't feeling it today so I prayed for His love, which will motivate me, excite me, and compells me for the ministry. In the midst of prayer, He reminded me of incident happened with Ellie yesterday. My daughter Ellie has this learned behavior of cleaning with wipe, she thinks it's fun. Anyway, she had this wet paper towel and wiping on my laptop.
As soon as I noticed her, I kind of yelled at her not to wipe on computer. I think I scared her, she cried and it was somewhat uncontrollable. I told her that it's OK. But she was clinging unto her Mom and cried and cried. I told her to come to me and I wanted to embrace her and calm her down. But she was too afaid of me to approch. At that moment all I wanted from her was that she would trust me and know that I love her. In the same way, I sensed that God wants me to trust Him for His love for me.
Doesn't love need to be trusted to be experienced in the first place? Love is experienced when trusted, even when I wronged and offended God who offers love.